Death by Drowning

I wonder if its possible
to drown in ones own tears? 
To die of broken-heartedness, 
or cancer of my fears?

If so, my life is over and
I cannot win the fight. 
Love life, career?
Everything seems like its out of sight

When all I want is happiness
 and yet my misery compels me 
toward loneliness and takes control of me
I know that it will happen when its meant to, naturally 
But Iʼve been blinded for so long that even laser surgery canʼt help me.

I can see only shades of darkness silhouettes and dreams while sunlight exposes all my flaws for all to see